Hi all!
I am looking for some advice, kind words, not even sure what really...
Had my dd 3 months ago, she had a tongue tie and she was jaundiced and as she couldn't feed properly we had to start topping up with formula. Her tongue tie was released at 2 weeks and I carried on nursing until she was 5 weeks but then moved to pumping and feeding through bottle as she was never satisfied after nursing and I struggled with nursing, pumping and bottle feeding. She would get so frustrated on my breast and constantly fall asleep on it. I've managed to up my supply through pumping and baby became much happier as soon as I stopped nursing. HOWEVER....
Last week I couldn't pump as much as normally and my supply dropped. I normally had to top her up with 1 bottle of formula a day, now we've gone to 3 bottles a day! I am trying to pump more now to increase my supply back but
I feel so sad that I've stopped trying to nurse her, I absolutely hate pumping and sterilising but feel guilty for thinking of stopping as I want to do my absolute best to try to give her breastmilk as long as possible.
I am angry with everybody who told me to top her up with formula, I feel like I failed her.
I am planning to get some help as I don't think my mental health is where it should be... but has anyone gone from exclusively pumping to maybe do a combination of nursing and pumping? I would be happy if I could nurse her couple of times a day... I haven't nursed her for 2 months and I did try it this morning, she latched on but came off after a minute and started crying. I did massage breast before to get a letdown so she would've had milk coming straight away. Should I carry on trying? Has anyone managed to get a baby who doesn't like breast back to nursing? I feel so lost..