I am quite anxious about pumping. Specifically I worry about me doing it wrong and my baby getting sick.
We had been exclusively BF for 6 weeks. In the last two nights we've introduced a pre 12 midnight bottle so that I can get a longer stretch of sleep (I was dangerously sleep deprived and this was effecting my MH but also I was falling asleep holding baby at night, very upsetting). This bottle is currently a formula bottle. I want it be expressed BM.
I have a double electric hospital grade pump and a haakaa. So I have the gear. But I am worried about pumping itself and the storage of the milk and making sure it is hygienic enough so as not to make my baby ill. I really want to pump as I don't want to use formula.
Can anyone talk me through the step by step of the pumping process, and how to do it so that everything, including me (should I shower before?) is clean enough? As I said I have a haakaa but hate that this can't go in our Milton steriliser (should only be boiled). I have a hospital grade double electric pump which I would sterilise in Milton and I have some little bottles to store the milk in itself.
For context - yes I have struggled with health anxiety in the past. It is under control but situations like this will test me until I have a good plan and that's what's I am seeking here others advice and reassurance on how to do this safely.
My first baby was FF and I hated it. Hated all the sterilising, hated all the chat from HV about contamination of milk and babies dying because of badly made up bottles (think I was unfortunate to have some terrible HV tbh but it was a dreadful dreadful time and I hated feeding my baby which is so terribly sad (I had PND with my first. No problems now).
And finally I haven't pumped for two days but we've effectively replaced a feed with formula other than to take off a bit with the haakaa and to release the pressure in the shower but admittedly not during feeding as I worry about taking milk and not leaving baby with enough during the feed. We've battled to get to this point with blocked ducts, mastitis, tongue tie and possible thrush, have I ruined my supply?
Thanks for listening!