Hi all. So not really sure why I'm putting this on here I guess I'm after some advise and opinions regardless of what they might be.
I have BF my dd from the start she is now 9 weeks. We had a very traumatic birth but I wont go into that, it did however mean that on night 2 she was given a small amount of formula by the midwives after being latched for 3 hours!!.
Anyway. Breast feeding has gone well in every aspect, she never lost any weight and has got big so fast. 7, 11 when born. 13, 4 at week 8!! Nothing had gone wrong. I got through the lip biting painful phase and now feel like a pro. But I hate doing it!.
I know i should cherish it and be grateful as some women cant bf but would love to but I really am starting to hate it!!!.
Befor dd came along I was out and about, busy team leader that old shebang. She now stops me from going out because shes on me every 90 mins or so. The hv said she is snaking rather then having a full meal and that I should give her a bottle mid morning to give me a bit of time off. I've done that and I feel so guilty cos it worked and I loved the 4 hours of freedom!.
There is nothing wrong with supply or her latch she just would rather snack and graze.
Am I being selfish for even contemplating given up bf to get my freedom back?
Has anyone else felt like this.
Mum guilt it killing me and then my rational brain kicks in and makes me so conflicted