My son is now 16 months and has been breastfed since birth. We had a rocky start with tongue tie but I really wanted to breastfeed and persevered. I haven't really "enjoyed" breastfeeding and I wanted to quit most of the first year! I started slowly weaning from the breast at 11/12 months after taking some advice from my health visitor as I was desperate to stop. We got down to about 1 feed a day and suddenly I found it more enjoyable! It was nice to have a cuddle and a feed on the sofa in the afternoon. A bit of respite from the demands of a busy toddler.
Anyway, over the last couple of months, the feeding has increased quite a bit and I'm feeding on demand throughout the day. I'm not sure how many times. It's not constant but perhaps 3-5x a day? I don't feed at night as I night weaned around 8/9 months. I'm finding it less enjoyable again. I just went away for 5 days/4 nights during which time he obviously went without. On my return, DS wanted boobie straight away. Totally normal, but now I'm thinking I just don't want to do it anymore. I've been home nearly 2 days and I've fed him a few times, but I'm trying to distract him.
I'm not really sure what my question is. I was really pleased to get to 12 months, but then when I kept going I thought, maybe I could make it to two years or self-weaning when DS wants to stop. DS really enjoys it and I'm keen on all the health benefits so I just feel incredibly guilty that I want to stop when it's perhaps "not that bad'. Did anyone else feel like this?