My lovely beautiful 1 year old turns into a hellbeast when it comes to breastfeeding time.
Hair pulling. Kicking. Punching. Biting. Pinching. Scratching.
Any attempt to stop a behaviour will just lead to her trying something even more annoying/painful. (I.e. if I hold her arms she kicks, if I hold her legs too she rolls her head around with my breast in her mouth).
If I give her toys etc to distract her she hits me with them then throws them.
If I stop the feed due to this behaviour she screams the house down and cries for milk (until I feel like I'm being cruel).
If I try to distract myself by reading a book that gets wrestled off my and flung across the room, or pages get ripped out.
There's just something about it all that is so annoying, it really pushed my buttons.
I'm feel so ragingly ANGRY and wound up by it. I've literally had to take her of the breast, hand her to my husband and walk out the room once because I was scared I'd lose my temper at her.
I miss the lovely calm breastfeeding we used to have. Now it feels like war.
I don't want to stop breastfeeding her, but I can't carry on like this. Any help?