Hello
I'm currently 36 weeks pregnant. I had reconciled myself to the fact that I probably won't be able to breastfeed without some measure of difficulty as I had a breast reduction two years ago, after which my surgeon told me to assume I wouldn't be able to breastfeed in future.
I know that there are sites on the internet aimed at women like me - BFAR (Breast Feeding After Reduction) for one - and when I first got pregnant I did a lot of reading on the subject. I decided, after learning about lots of different experiences, which overwhelmingly seemed to involve weeks and months of expressing, watching one's baby struggle to gain weight, using "at breast" supplement tubes, ingesting all sorts of weird potions to increase milk production etc, and mostly a lot of stress and heartache, that trying to establish breastfeeding would likely be a big struggle and source of worry to beat myself up about when I have my baby, and that it would be the best thing all round if I just decided to formula feed from the start.
Yesterday, however, I was in the bath and kind of absent-mindedly tweaking one of my nipples, and a few drops of colostrum came out. I tried the other nipple, and same result. So it appears that my breasts, despite the trauma I've subjected the poor things to, are still in some kind of working order. Now I'm back to wondering whether I should at least give breastfeeding a try - which leaves me back where I started: how long do I persevere for? Would it be worth trying to breastfeed if only for a couple of weeks? How will I be able to tell when it's definitely not going to work out? Is the fact that I've produced some colostrum already a good sign, in terms of my chance of 'success'?
This has been a bit of a ramble and I suppose I'll have to find the answers to some of these questions myself, but I'd be interested to hear perspectives from people who've been in a similar situation. I know breastfeeding is an emotive subject and I've tried to be clear and objective about the various issues involved, but this is an important decision obviously and whilst I want to give my child the best start possible, I don't want the breastfeeding/bottlefeeding question to overshadow all the other aspects of parenting and nurturing that I'll be learning too.