Hi all,
After some advice- hoping someone else might have a similar situation or know of any ideas to help solve my issues!
My third baby is 11 months and still bf day and night. I've returned to work full time as work wouldn't let me reduce my hours. I work shift work including earlies lates and nights. I managed 11 weeks back at work- and have now been signed off sick for a month with anxiety as I was reaching breaking point. Crying all the time, contemplating doing something silly to myself and super angry with all my children and dh :-(
I haven't had a full night sleep in almost a year- she wakes every 3 hours to feed.
I pump whilst at work day or night and she has ebm at childminders.
My boss thinks I need to get my dd out of our bed, into her cot and sleeping through the night to help my anxiety and cope better with full time work she also wants me to reduce the amount of times I pump at work (currently pumping 3 times a shift)
It doesn't feel right to stop feeding her at night if she still wants it and likes it. But I am desperately exhausted and don't know what to do for the best? She eats 3 meals a day but still breastfeeds a lot when I'm with her.
I also don't know whether to reduce pumping at work at my bosses suggestion as in a few weeks time- she's one.. but I still want to feed her until she's ready to stop and I worry that if I stop pumping and work full time my supply will dissappear.
I am having cbt for my anxiety and starting counselling soon too. Not keen on starting medication but really struggling with what to do.
Any ideas very welcome.
From a worn out mama of 3 xx