completely fed up

[usandnosleep]

My ds is 6 months old, since he was 2 months old he has woken me every 2 hours through the night and a couple of nights a week it will be more often.
He will occasionally let my dp settle him with a cuddle but he usually needs me to feed him back to sleep. I'm exhausted and cannot go on with this but feel completely trapped. I have tried co-sleeping but I still didn't get any sleep.
He is exclusively breast fed, we have been trying since he was just a month to get him to take a bottle with no luck, he has on the odd occasion taken 2 ozs but it is very hit and miss. He will sip from a cup but very small amounts and this isn't practical at night
I started weaning him at 5 months, the first few days went well then he had an upset tummy and now refuses to let food near his mouth. He likes to hold and play with food but the only thing he has put near his mouth is a banana which he did suck at but won't since.
I now really don't like breast feeding I want to say I hate breastfeeding. I'm not sure what I want anyone to say. I didn't know where to put this either it's a milk, food and sleep issue.
Anyone felt the same?

Hey if it works I'm up for anything! Glad things are a little better for you too xxx

Hi usandnosleep
This is my first post on MN. I have been searching for someone who had a similar provlem - "completely fed up" jumped out at me! My dd2 is now 7 months. She was like your ds until a few weeks ago. I was exhausted, had mastitis just before Christmas and then query Thrush. I went to see the hv and she was weighed (1st time in 8 weeks) and she had lost weight. I felt rubbish - been exclusively bf all day and all night (every 2 hours if lucky at night and have 3 other children). She was only 12lbs 12. Hv was very encouraging about bf and helped with positioning, but when I got home it all went wrong again. So she is now almost fully formula fed - feel fed up at this as I wanted to bf her for a year, however dd2 is so much more content and she sleeps nearly all night - wakes for one bottle at about 11pm. (I am not pushing the idea you switch your ds at all). I still bf morning and evening.
I know how you feel when you've done everything possible - all that feeding and then it feels like it's not good enough.

Schilke - welcome to Mumsnet , well done for bf exclusively for so long, your DD has had a great start in life, and with thrush and mastitis to deal with too, ouch.

Have you thought about joining one of the postnatal threads - usandnosleep and myself are on the July one, not sure when your babe was born.

Hi Schilke

'completely fed up' really sums up how I was feeling at the time of that post! It sounds like you have had a really awful time too I'm glad things have improved so much for you.
Don't feel disappointed with giving mostly formula, you have done so well to bf all this time, you have given your dd a great start in life You should feel very proud of that. If my ds would take a bottle I would introduce ff too. Such a pickle
Things are easier here too, ds is waking 2-3 times a night which is a lot easier to cope with. It's amazing what a difference a couple of hours more sleep makes.

Welcome to mumsnet, I hope I 'bump' into you again