hello, I'm in desperate need of advice. I had a monstrous pregnancy with every symptom going - most notably hypersalivation and hyperemesis. I was off work and in bed for months, by the end I could hardly walk. I had a difficult birth, crash c-section, week in hospital, etc. My little girl is now almost 6 months and doing very well, but I am an absolute state. For the first 2 months I was so sleep deprived I felt on the edge of collapse all the time, despite support from my mum and my amazing partner. Once that began to subside I started with a whole raft of other problems. The thing which is making me lose my will to love is dysphagia. I can barely swallow and I have breathing difficulties. I am awaiting numerous referrals which takes forever and I can get no sense of urgency from the doctors. I have lost 25 kg since baby was born, and I had it to lose but I'm now half a stone below my pre-pregnancy weight and continuing to lose weight fast. The difficulty swallowing also affects my breathing and I am terrified of choking as I have little control over what happens at the back of my throat. I am EBF and in my desperation I wonder if it could be linked to hormones or something. My period came back after four months. I don't want to stop BF but my life is not worth living and neither is my OH's anymore. I am too scared to be alone with baby because I cannot cope with this condition and spend half my time camping at my mum's when he's at work. I also cannot have sex as it is too painful despite the fact that I have no other vaginal symptoms. I don't know if all this is due to tension but my hypersalivation has now returned and on top of the dysphagia my life is utter hell. I don't want to stop BF but if there's any chance it could be related I think i will have to. Because there is such an effort to promote BF (which of course I understand) it's impossible for me to find anything about any negative die-effects of BF online. Has anyone found that BF had a negative impact on their health? I have even in desperation been to A&E and all I got was questions about whether I might have PND. They sent a HV to check up on me and she said she thought it was a ludicrous suggestions as baby is thriving but she could see I've lost a lot of weight and reported back to my GP. Still taking months to get referred to specialists. I had an endoscopy which showed mild inflammation of the oesophagus but nothing to justify the extent of my symptoms. I'm convinced when I finally get my referral they'll say well you don't have cancer so we can't help you. I am supposed to go back to work in a couple of months and I don't know what to do because I definitely can't work like this :( Sorry for long post and any help at all much appreciated.