After lots of talk, (!) today was the day I put my 14m old DS to bed with no bf. He was exhausted as 30mins bedtime later than usual but did not ask for bf. Gave him a big kiss and a cuddle, rock and a lullaby and put him to bed. Closed the door and cried my eyes out...
Born after a long labour and emergency caesarean he took to bfeeding like a duck to water and it has been a lovely experience. He slept in bed with me in hospital and looking back on the past year or so those first few days are so prominent and special.
I feel that I have given my son the best of my energies and focus for the past year and want to advise anyone that if they have some doubts about carrying on bfeeding that despite the demand on mum (have exclusively bf from birth) and dad (feeling excluded etc) every single day has been worth it!!
DS is a bundle of joy and I feel that today I have really let go of that bond between us but am excited about the new future!
any thoughts or feelings....?