Ds is 4 weeks old and has had oral thrush for a good 3 weeks now. I asked the mw if it was that before we were discharged and she said no it's just a milk coating. I wish I'd have ignored her and gone with my instincts instead of battling through with ds screaming at the breast, coming on and off, shaking his head and generally fussing a lot whilst feeding. I also have an over supply so he was choking and coughing so I thought it was an over active let down. I went to a breastfeeding clinic to see if I could get some help and the lady took one look at his mouth and said he's got oral thrush. Took him straight to the doctors and the gp agreed and gave us treatment. Up until this point I didn't have it but since ive started the daktarin my boobs are killing. I'm getting shooting pains, the nipples tingle and itch and they generally feel horrible. I'm leaking and dripping and spurting all over the place and bfing just seems horrible at the moment. I tried giving him a bottle last night to give me a break and he looked up at me like a little lost puppy like why are you doing this? Then put an Oscar winning performance on of are you giving me poison? This is disgusting get it out of my mouth now! And started gagging and spitting it all out. So I gave up and put him back on the breast where he did a good feed.
On top of horrible sleep deprivation feeding every 1-2 hrs at night I feel like the walking dead. I smacked the side of my nose closing the cupboard door yesterday full force in a freak accident and it tipped me over the edge. Luckily dh was working from home and heard me shout ow and flew in from the dining room where he was working to find me with my face in my hands bawling my eyes out and cuddled me through it.
Dd who is 2.8 is really feeling it and has become very clingy and jealous. She constantly asks for cuddles which is lovely but not when I'm struggling with ds fighting the breast and becoming hysterical then dd starts crying coz she wants attention and I feel like my head is going to burst with the stress of it all. Especially when she's bouncing on the sofa next to me while I'm trying to feed or clambering all over me and saying incessantly mummy can I hold him, mummy can I hold him. It all feels too much sometimes!
People keep asking me if I'm napping in the day. I'm not coz I have a toddler to look after and ds will only nap on me. As soon as I put him down he wakes up.
Just needed to get that all off my chest.