Apologies if this is a topic that's been done to death, but I'm in need of some serious support - I'm completely swamped in baby blues and really struggling with feeding after a traumatic c-section birth.
My milk didn't come in at all for the first three days, so baby was put on formula. Now, I'm still not engorged but there is milk there - problem is, baby has damaged my nipples and refuses to latch on and stay on. I'm willing to put up with pain - she can latch, I think she's just lazy/confused.
Sometimes, although not that often, she'll have a lovely long feed but she's still hungry (to the point of hysteria) after both breasts. Most often, she'll latch on for a minute or so, suck, swallow, then drop off and thrash her head about. She fed for almost two hours earlier, but still wanted a bottle after.
I'm spending most of the time in floods of tears - I'm traumatised by the birth (the spinal didn't work properly, which meant I felt everything and got through it on IV pain relief/gas and air 
), so baby's upset is reducing me to an absolute sobbing wreck, which I suspect isn't helping my supply, or my relationship with her.
Whenever I really can't get her on, I am pumping, and I'm trying to use the stimulation setting on the pump in between feeds to get things going a bit better, but I just don't think I have enough milk. I don't feel engorged, there's no 'let down' sensation and I'm not leaking milk at all.
Any help or advice would be so appreciated - I'd also be interested to know if anyone knows of organisations that send visitors out. I'd be happy to pay a private breastfeeding support person if necessary - I just really, really want to get this sorted.
Thanks for reading x