I feel like a cow, and not in a good way.

[misdee]

dd3 is driving me mad. i want to give up b/f now, but she constantly clambering on me, and pinching me. i offer her, cows milk, water or watery juice in a cup, sometimes she takes it. but this morning she has pinched and scratched me trying to get under my top. I have just put her back in her cot and left her to scream it out. i feel awful.

That woman. I had hoped she'd worked out that you were a fantastic woman, brilliant wife, superb mother - because you are - but it seems she's still blinkered and dim.

Misdee I'm sure nothing would help... but... last month I decided that I wasn't feeding DS during the day anymore. It was two awful days similar to what you described, vbut it was only two days, IYSWIM. I follow someone's suggestion of confining the night and morning feeding to his room, where we usually are not during the day, so he can dissacociate the rest of the house with feeding. He did kick and scream for two days, but in my head I just hugged him as hard as I could to stop him from hurting me, and to feel I did my part that it wasn't love that was being withdrawn from him. I'm sure is very hard to do this with everything going on in your house, but if you are sure this is the route you want to go, I just wante dto let you know that there might be light at the end of the tunnel.

Good luck!

{{{{{{hugs}}}}}} don't have any advice but with think of you.

Hope you're alright Misdee.

i ended up feeding her twice this evening, but gave her a cup of milk before bedtime which she drank sitting next to me of the sofa. she went off to sleep no problem. usually she falls asleep on the breast. still feeling awful about it. but i am feeling rough as anything, tired and back still aching

Oh hun, I have nothing constructive to say but wanted to give {{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}

Morning Misdee, did dd3 sleep thru without waking for a feed?

How was she this morning?

How do YOU feel today?

Misdee - you need some time out for yourself. Can your mum not have the girls while the carer/Pete's mum is with Pete?

Carry on giving DD3 a cup of milk before bed and you may find she will stop asking for a breastfeed. Don't feel bad - you have done brilliantly well. You don't want to feel resentful of breastfeeding after all this time. Don't worry about occasionally 'giving in'. You might find yourself feeding and enjoying it rather than feeling that you 'have to'.

You have so many demands on you that you need to have some care for you. Can your health visitor help you get some help?

Oh Misdee, you are dealing with such a lot atm. Empathise with your situation of so many needs falling on your shoulders. I don't know you or the fuller picture but have seen some other threads and realise it is a time of great adjustment for your family. Dd3 may be showing her needs in her feeding demands and it is a bit much for you today as you are 'giving out' of yourself and feel drained. The pinching and scratching is her protest - my ds2 did exactly the same when I decided (in a very stressful time) that I HAD to wean him totally. Felt that I had no option at that time because of lack of support. At the same age as your dd3 is,too.

Some days feel overwhelming. Hope you can find the practical support you need in rl and know that we are rooting for you on here too {{{HUGS}}}

she slept till 6am last night, which was good. have done the same this evening, breastfeed then a cup of milk, and she has settled well. dd2 is having a tantrum though

Well Done dd3, what has set dd2 off Misdee?

i honestly dont have a clue. something wasnt right, and couldnt make head nor tale of her, so left her to it.