Tonight has been a low point. DD is three weeks old and in the last few days she has struggled with latching on, despite some success earlier on. Today she's been very fussy and only feeding for a few minutes at a time.
This evening she screamed and I was convinced she wanted to be fed but then she wouldn't be able to latch on properly. DP tried to help but I just ended up getting frustrated and crying my eyes out. I tried calling La Leche League but nobody was available to pick up.
Eventually I've changed feeding positions and the baby has been feeding on and off for the past hour while I've been calming myself down by watching The Bridge.
I feel like a piece of shit. My frustration must have rubbed off on DD. I feel like I've caused her unsettled state and am kicking myself for letting my tiredness and worry rub off on my baby. I'm worried that she is starving and really don't know how to get back on track. It could be that she is going through another growth spurt but surely if that's the case she should be eating more not struggling to feed.
Apologies for a long rant. Please tell me this will get better and that I haven't scarred my child emotionally by crying on her beautiful head. God I feel like a terrible failure 