Please tell me I'm being ridiculous

[sweetnessismyweakness]

I have been EBF my 8 month old DD until a few weeks ago when I started slowing changing to formula. This was a really difficult decision but I felt for a number of reasons that it was the best thing to do for both of us. So I had got it down to all feeds being formula except for her bedtime one. Then tonight for some reason I decided to try giving her a bottle instead which she took really well. The problem is I now feel really guilty that I didn't appreciate that last night's BF was our last as at the time I didn't think it was. I don't feel like I marked it as being special and significant which I know is completely ridiculous.

Not really sure why I'm posting, I think I just want someone to give me a slap and tell me to pull myself together!

Slap, slap, pull yourself together :) might be for the best that you didn't know, maybe you would have felt sad about it at the time if you had?

I can't remember my last feed with either of my children, although I DO remember thinking that I must mark it in some way, so I obviously noted it at the time.

It is not the last one that is significant, it is the sum total of all the feeds you did that matter. You will never forget having fed your DD.

Thank you for the slaps. As I typed I knew it was stupid, don't think the aching boobs are helping my thought processes!

I totally understand. I keep thinking 'this is my last feed' then ending up doing another, but I am keen to stop soon as it doesn't really work for us. Why not do one tomorrow night, savour it, explain to your baby that it has been a pleasure but time to move on a bit now, and maybe take a pic. With both my babies I have lovely pics, just for me, that I took on my phone while they were feeding - it's their head/face and my boob. Sounds weird but is totally beautiful.

Why not feed her tomorrow?

I was thinking of feeding her tomorrow to be honest but didn't want to confuse her and DH told me I was being stupid.

If you mix feed anyway it's
unlikely she'll be confused. X

If you want to stop, stop, if you don't want to stop don't and if you want to go out some evenings and give her a bottle do.

It really isn't complicated your body and your DD will adapt without you noticing.