Hi, ds is almost 15weeks. I have been struggling with anxiety, mainly about feeding and weight gain, and have posted lots before and received a lot f help which I am very gratelful for, it has helped us get this far. I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown and the impact on our little family is becoming too much to continue ebf. Dh and I have reluctantly decided to give ds a bottle of formula a day to try to ease the pressure on me (most feeds are difficult ATM as ds is pulling on and off or squirming, have tried to get help for this over last 2 weeks to no avail, and his weight gain seems to be slowing again, he is almost down on 0.4 centime now having been tracking between 25th and 9th at previous times). We have been debating this for ages, and the time has come where something has to change. It breaks my heart to think of the formula going into his body, but ebf is impacting my relationship with ds, ds1 and dh, and I am slipping further down and down. We are thinking of giving the bottle in the evenings, (he still cluster feeds in the eves)prob about .1 hour after a bf. I have no idea how much to give. I am planning to express if I can so that my supply doesn't dip, and would like some of the bottle the next night to be expressed if poss. I don't know when to do this though because I don't know if he will want to bf after the bottle for comfort, or how long the formula will fill him up for. I also dont know how long to pump for. I can't hold back the tears just writing about it .....should we give the bottle in a certain way? thank you.