Is this normal or not? Weepy and Overwhelmed...

[OpheliasWeepingWillow]

Named changed as embarrassed :(

Gave birth last week, labored almost 2 days and ended in EMCS. Lots of pain and really 'shocked' by the whole experience.

Now home and:

Baby is ebf but I seem to be feeding feeding feeding despite lots of supply. Almost impossible to nap or rest at night.

This would not be such a problem but... I am so weepy! Every time I feed (i.e. all the time) I am overwhelmed by the enormity of having a baby and screwing it up somehow.

This afternoon she was so fussy and I ended up just bawling but in a really hormonal way, not in a 'depressed' way.

Still taking painkillers (strong) and feeling guilty. I already take ADs and REALLY do not want to slide into PSD.

I of course have entire half days when I am not crying :) Perhaps it's just been one of those afternoons?

So - is it normal to be a weepy mess half the time after you have had a baby and said baby is a little bit fussy? Is this baby blues?

Is it at all related to breastfeeding? Clueless here.

Thanks for reading.

ophelia you will stop crying and it will get easier - I hope your trip to the dr was helpful - be well soon x

How did the doctors appointment go? Hope you are doing ok!

Dr doubled the ADs so let's see how that goes. Only cried three times yesterday! DH going travelling on business next week an really worried about how I will cope on my own...

I hate it when DH goes away, do you have friends you can lean on? I hope the change in dose helps. Can you still bf?

Hallo - yes to BF and no to a lot of friends here as just moved to a new country but will have to take self to all the mother and baby events in dodgy local taxis oh god and I do have a housekeeper who helps a lot so I am actually really lucky.

Am supposed to be working part time from home too which is really really hard right now why did I agree to it?

How are you feeling?

I'm glad you can still bf for me quitting would add to the PND.

I have good and bad days, my main goal is to go to bed soon after DS does as I am not getting enough sleep (who does though!).

I hope you find some good groups - it will make all the difference to you.

Ophelia I went through exactly the same thing, felt exactly the same way about the birth ie "in shock", did not expect it to be quite like that etc... bfing is bloody hard aswell isnt it! Bravo to you, you are made of sterner stuff than you believe at the moment :) give it time, you will begin to feel much better and more used to your baby. Congratulations!