So after discovering last weekend that DS2 is allergic to formula and having to rush home from a night shift, last night we made the exciting discovery that he is now refusing bottles, even of expressed milk. Used my break at midnight to drive home, feed DS2 and settle him, then drive back, but he woke up half an hour after I left and was inconsolable, DH spent an hour and a half trying to get him off, then DS1 woke up and started screaming so I had to go back to sort it all out, and DH feels like a failure as he couldn't calm him 
even though he probably could if he had boobs.
So stressed out now, feel sick at the thought of going back to work on Thursday, I can use my break to come back, and may even be ae to negotiate an extra break, but this doesn't solve the problem of him wakin between feeds (and he needs more than two feeds a night anyway). Tried dummies but he's not impressed, really at then end of my tether now, and DH is stressed and stressing me out too, I've had two hours of sleep since last night and I can't stop crying everytime i think of leaving him again
I love bf but I'm worried that I've made him to dependent on me, I hate being at work knowing he needs me
Sorry for rant, bit emotional and overtired