plodding thru more cluster feeds - i can understand why ppl give up bfing early actually

[titferbrains]

DS is almost 10wo

I am so fed up with

backache
no time to myself in evenings - he sleeps well enough in cot in day, but wants to be fed all evening
not knowing when they've had enough - thought ds was ready to have a nice evening sleep but woke up when sat down to hoover up leftovers at breakneck speed - another uncomfortable meal, great
pain - I started off with a tongue tie, still get pain on one side if I'm not really vigilant about latch and this isn't always possible
big heavy boobs make it hard to feed him in sling
seeing the loving rel'ship betw dd and I hanging in shreds as we struggle to get in enough proper cuddles

It's just so annoying that the first few months are so fucking tough and then you get past 6 months and you feel like you'd be happy to breast feed forever! or at least that was the case for me

I don't want to give up because I want to bf exclusively for health etc, but getting thru these long evenings of feeding is really dull and annoying and the first few weeks were really hard, even with help from my doula, and an LC

anyone else struggle with these conflicting feelings?

I have a dd so am really rEALLY missing my evenigns, my days have gotten much harder to get thru. dd is now quite difficult at night for bath etc. and i really miss being able to cook nice suppers for me and dh....

absolutely feeling your pain. have ds1 3yrs and ds2 6 weeks, feeding all evening is so tough but determined to do it as didn't manage with ds1. meals- i prep nice meals earlier in day if i can, usually casserole, curry etc and then leave dh to do rice etc. baths for ds1, well usually dh will do whilst i feed, then stories and cuddle in my bed...but it is so hard, ds1 is very difficult at the moment and i can't say i blame him, mummy has been highjacked! excuse typo's, trying to type and feed but if i dare to move he falls off the breast!