Disappointed with myself, can't find the confidence?

[Dozeyland]

So DD is 14 weeks old.

I go to Baby breastfeeding cafe every tuesday, Feed with lots of confidence here.

I've only fed once on my own in public, which i felt nervous about, but when i did it, i felt ver proud. (bearing in mind it was in strbucks, at the back where two women were on their laptops.)

BUT my dilemma is:

Whenever im out and DD needs a feed, i get a bt panicky and end up feeding in the baby changing room :-(

I feel so upset with myself :(

if im out with a friend, (who bottle-feeds) and i think DD needs feeding, i know that she's a bit of a noisy feeder, sometimes gets distracted and comes off etc, and i dont want my boobs on show. i am very discreet (wear feeding vests for minimal show) but DD is quite sucky still and trying to have a conversation whilst dd is sucking sounds like it would be hard.

plus im silly for caring what other (bottle-feeding mainly) mums think i just dont want people to feel uncomfortable around me?

and also i feel extra self-consious about feeding in front of men in public.

GOD why oh why do i worry?

I feel that ive done so well (for those of you who have seen my posts, pain difficulty feeding etc.) but i just want to get to "THAT" stage where i feel 100% comfortable feeding in public. sometimes i like feeding in private as it gives my DD a nice relaxed feeding session, but when its needed out and about i want to feel comfortable doing it. regardless of DD being a bit noisy....

Congratulations you are doing really well. Don't pressurize yourself or feel upset, just continue as you are doing. If you feel more comfortable in feeding in changing rooms, carry on doing that. I'm sure at some point you will have more confidence and will feed more and more in public.

Thank you :)

just thought i was a terrible mum for not having that extra bit of confidence.

embarrassment is nothing to do with it, i just need to remember stepping stones!

and not to care what others think AS MUCH!!

Yes - you are doing brilliantly.

I am feeding my third and in the past have been very comfortable feeding in public, but for this one (who was v.v.v. painful to feed at the beginning and is a bit noisy / fussy on the boob) I haven't fed in public yet!! I am feeling a bit self concious too.

I think it will come in time as we relax more, but in the mean while, I don't stress about it and time things to feed at home or in private.

Also (as I keep telling myself), once I do get "out there" the vast majority of people will be oblivious to what you are doing and if they do notice, won't bat an eye.

Good luck!