Thats it - I think he has dropped his last feed.

[toddlerwrangler]

He is 21 months.

I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset. I am not upset.

Well, if I am honest, I am a bit upset . I know a lot of BF mums don't think you can bond as well over a bottle, but we did. We snuggle, we sing, we chat about our day, we tell each other what parts of our face are called. And then he gets all sleepy and goes to bed.

Only the last couple of nights he has refused the bottle. I suppose I blmae myself - his 21 month old faithful Dr Browns are knackered, and not wanting to pay £1000000000 for new bottle I replaced them with wide neck Asda cheapy jobs with a similar teat. He tollerated them (just) 'till the night before last when he flatly refused to take it, so I offered the Dr Brown and he still said no. Tried again tonight - same responce.

I am now worried he is thirsty in the night. That he is hungry. That he is not getting enough protien (not a big meat or bean lover).

And, on top of the guilt (that I ruined his bedtime bottle and cuddle to save some £££) and worry (see above) there is the fact that I just have to accept he is not a baby anymore. Due to the start we had, and fear of more PND, I have always said I don't want another - but it is easy to not want another baby while you have a baby. Now I am sat here with all those original feelings of failuire coming right back again.

Please ignore me. It is just that it is One Born Every Minuite tonight and I know I am going to cry even more due to all the above.

I will maybe try him tomorrow with warm milk in a mug with straw (he wont take it in a beaker/sippycup).

:(

Aw, an un-mn hug for you love.

Enjoy the bedtime cuddles and chats - my 4 yr old still does!

Fwiw, took me 3 plus years to go for no.2.

Hi Toddlerwrangler, sorry to hear you're feeling sad. Your feeds sound lovely and lots of fun - lots for me to look forward to as DD continues to get bigger (6 months now!). I'm sure you can enjoy all the same things with a bedtime cuddle and snuggle, no?

I know what you mean about him 'not being a bbaby anymore' though - I thought 'gosh, she's growing up!!!' when she went into her big cot, sleeping bag, sitting up mode in her buggy and started weaning all in one week - bit overwhelming and a bit sad that the first stage of her babyhood was over!

Also know what you mean about One Born Every Minute - I cry every week at that especially last night when the woman had an EMCS because of a breech baby - I watched it through my fingers, thinking 'aargh, that was my tummy'

theborrower - he doesn't sit still long enough to snuggle without a bottle! He is JUST about tolerating a quick bedtime story and then to bed, but he isn't settling anywhere near as well :( Tried him with milk through a straw tonight and he maybe took 2oz.

I loved giving him him bottle once he was bigger, you get fun and cudles! It's really lovely when they run round like loons to have that little sit and chat and the end of the day (in between glugs on bottle).

Me: 'Did you see Millie today'
A: 'Uh'
And Joseph?
A: 'Uh! Uh!' (excited)
Did you show millie here her nose was?
A: 'Noooooozzzzzzz'
Me: And her toes?
A: 'Tooooozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz'
A: 'Beepbeep'
Me: 'We will sing wheels on the bus tomorrow when you get up'
A: 'beeeepbeeeeeppppp' (sleepy)
Me: 'Nightnight. Mummy loves you'.
A: 'Allllllll daaaaayyyyyyy ooooooooonnnnngggg'

Aaaw :)

I get it. I BF my DS who is 7mo during the day and give him a FF bottle last thing. During the day is a PITA because he wriggles and squirms and wants to do anything else but that night time snuggle all alone just me and him in his room while I tell him a story (tonights was about princesses, he will be in touch with his feminine side) and he falls asleep and I stroke his head...is so precious. Other people say why don't I get his Dad to do the last feed at night but it's probably the nicest one! Bottle feeding can be just as special.