My baby is nearly 20 weeks old now. Bf has always been a nightmare. First it was excrutiating pain over a long period of time. This led to a nursing strike and all-day pumping. A lactation consultant recommended shields ... without alerting me to the fact that he might not then feed without them. He refuses to latch on now without the shields so I can't feed outside of the house as feeding with shields requires a whole raft of paraphernalia: pillows, etc. He also cries when he nears my breasts for feeding. He cries during feeding if the milk comes too fast/slow and then refuses to feed. He cries when he finishes feeding. I thought babies were supposed to like bf. This whole rigmarole is putting enormous pressure on my marriage and mental health. I don't know anyone else who is still struggling after 20 weeks! All the fuss surrounding feeding means I often don't leave the house or speak to anyone. I've sought help from a range of professionals, but to no avail. What's going wrong and what do I do? I'm just waiting for it to get natural and normal, as all the literature suggests bf is ... not in my experience. Any sensible, practical help?