DS is 9 months and today is the first time I've gone all day without bf him. I'm so sad I could cry right now.
Bit of background... DS, up until last week, was still sleeping and eating like a newborn. He wanted to feed every couple of hours day and night, sometimes as often as every hour at night. He did a couple of weeks at around 4 months where he slept for up to 6 hours at a time but other than that it's been this constant feeding pattern. He's incredibly clingy with me, will not even let DH settle him. I have a DD who will be 2 at the end of this month who also regularly wakes at night and a DH who works shifts. In short, I was exhausted.
I started to give DS a bottle of formula in the morning and one before bed but it made no difference. I night weaned him last week, now I just cuddle him to sleep and he's been fine with it. He mostly seemed to just briefly comfort suck before falling back to sleep at night anyway.
Today, I haven't bf him at all. He's on solids and eats plenty. He's had three bottles of formula and has mostly seemed ok. He's pulled at my top a few times but has otherwise been his usual self. I'm now a wreck though. I wish I'd carried on bf. I never managed it at all with DD so I was very proud of myself and now I'm just so disappointed.
Have I completely ruined bf? I want to try to get him back on the breast tomorrow and phase out the formula. Would this even be possible? Would I still be able to not bf him at night?