Maybe this is the insecurity that lurks in most BFing mums speaking, but I'm worried about my baby. She's 3 months old. 3 weeks ago I cut out all her formula top-ups (she'd normally have about 5oz per night because I couldn't express enough for DH to be able to relieve me of some night time feeds).
2 weeks ago I had her weekly weigh in and she had not gained any weight at all (a first for her, although her weight gain has never been great. She gained only 1oz one week). The HV did not seem concerned.
But I was of course. I saw the doctor who said that she could not prescribe anything to boost supply "because my prolactin levels were not low". So in desperation I went on Fenugreek and pumped inbetween feedings and this has now appeared to increase my supply from 3oz to 5oz per pumping session. Also I can feel my breasts filling up sooner.
I haven't weighed my baby since. Partly because the book says you should only weigh them monthly, but mostly because I'm very scared. The thought of getting her weighed and finding out in cold, hard numbers that I'm a failure despite my best efforts, makes me feel panic.
So why am I scared despite an apparent increase in supply? Well, my mind could be playing tricks on me but:
She doesn't have a chubby tummy like I see most babies having.
I can feel her ribs when I run my finger across her chest.
When positioning her at the breast I can feel her shoulder blades at the back.
Her feeds last a very long time still (40mins-1hour)
Am I STARVING her in an attempt to stay exclusive? I'm a first time mum and I don't know a single soul who breastfeeds and my HCPs are appauling in their knowledge of breastfeeding. You are the only people I can ask for advise. I'll answer any questions you have if you need more info.