Hi,
So I dont really know how to start this. It's only recently dauned on me. I've been blending in for the last 14 years. I'm a 30 year old woman and mixed race. I've recently been thinking about my lack of friendships/relationships. Ive struggled to solidify friendships since I left school. One of the reasons I think I've struggled is because I've worked with and come across predominantly white people. I had mostly mixed race friends when I was at school. I moved schools near the end and never kept those friendships, only 1 of them. Now I'm a mum with 2 children to a white partner. I've been so busy being mum and blending in with my white inlaws, majority of older white mothered baby groups and mums at the school. I'm feeling a bit lost with my identity and my age actually. I've become really boring, I don't do alot or have much interests. I'm starting to realise why I haven't truly connected with people over the years. I honestly think its because culture and colour has been missing. My mum sees me more as white and the funny thing is that I see myself as more black. That might be confusing to some, I don't know. I just don't know what to do going forward. Am I never going to have those connections I had when I was school. Where your firstly drawn to each other because of your colour and a friendships stems from there. My area is predominately white. I know there's black and mixed girls around but I rarely see them. Anyone else felt similar or the same. Are there other groups/forums to find friends/mums of the same race?