**AUGUST 2010** our first baby

[pamplem0usse]

As promised, Caz's message. I've taken out a couple of identifying details, I hope none of you mind.

DH and me are so genuinely touched by your thoughtfulness on the MNet thread. It is remarkable how much support a community of virtual friends can give and I have enjoyed being part of the August community. You really are a wonderful group of women and DH and me think it is so so kind to want to do something special for us and our little girl.

As your being so kind for us I just feel you should all know a little bit about Belle. Belle was born sleeping yesterday 21st June 2010 at 00:08, weighing just 4lb 5oz.

It took 5 days and lots of drugs, and eventually manually breaking my waters to start labour, and the most painful experience despite the morphine, physically and emotionally, but I'm weirdly glad I felt the pain because I did it for her. The morphine literally made me pass out between contractions but only took the edge off the pain, if at all, I came round to contract and push, and used gas and air. I couldn?t have an epidural as it was too dangerous for my safety as I?ve also developed an infection in the last few days and been on IV drip for
that.

DH has been an absolute rock and looking after me so well, has not left my side for even a minute and allowed me to cling to him throughout. We spent 12 hours with our baby girl as a family ,she is totally beautiful and like a tiny little doll. We talked to her, made sure she felt our love, held her close and made sure we enjoyed every minute we had with her. It was excruciatingly painful and hard handing her over but we knew we had to put her safe and we are now going to concentrate all our
efforts on planning the special perfect funeral she deserves.

Please please don't let our tradegy take away from the rest of all your pregnancies and beautiful babies because I've always found the advice, support and the place to
rant invaluable over the last few months and the group needs to continue doing that, and celebrate all the arrivals of the little ones. I promise when I am feeling
stronger I will find you all to see how you are all doing, and your babies and to check in.

Thankyou for being such a special group of ladies.

Lots of love Caz x x x

What a lovely message from Caz. I'm honoured that she would take the time to write to let us know how she is doing in what must but such a painful time. My thoughts are with her and her family.

Rest in peace little Belle xxx

Thanks pample & thankyou caz for sharing your story with us.

I'm glad you got to spend some time with your precious baby girl & hope you have some nice memories of her.

Thinking of you & sending you & your dh lots of love.

R.I.P Belle XXXXXXXX

RIP little belle another beautiful little angel amongst the stars. xxxxxx

Thank you Caz for taking the time to share your story. You've been in all of our thoughts so much over the last few days and you'll continue to be.

God bless your little girl and may the angels keep her safe.
xx

Thank you Caz. We have all been thinking of you a lot.

Belle you have been very lucky to have such wonderful parents. Sleep well

caz - nothing to add other than you are in my thoughts

Caz I think you are so incredibly strong to even write to us so soon. It is extremely special that you could share your story with us. It sounds like you and your DH have an amazing attitude and support of each other, lovely little Belle would be very proud of her mummy and daddy x

thank you for sharing your story Caz - it has brought me to tears. i don't know you and have only just rejoined the thread but i think you're a very strong and brave lady with a wonderful DH and you will get through this with your love for each other, and Belle. Wishing you all the very best and happier times ahead, xx

caz I also admire your strength to write so soon, my thoughts are with you and your dh. R.I.P Belle xxx Glad you were able to spend time with her. Sending my love to you both xx

Caz thank you for sharing your story. My thoughts are still with you and your DH.

Caz that is such a beautiful birth story and I so glad you were able to spend some precious time with your beautiful Belle. You've all been in our hearts and minds.

Thank you so much for sharing your story. xxxx

Another thanks Caz and my admiration at your strength and dignity.

"Born sleeping" is as lovely a way to put it as I can think of.

Much love and good wishes to you and your DH and your special Belle.

Caz thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story with us. My thoughts are with you and your husband. RIP Bellexxxxxx

Caz I'm glad you were so well taken care of during such a difficult time. Thank you for sharing your heartbreaking but beautiful story. We're all thinking of you, your DH and your precious little Belle.

Thanks for sharing Caz.

So sorry this had to happen to you

Caz Thanks for sharing your story, my thoughts are with you and your DH.

Wishing you all the best xxx

Am amazed that you found the strength to post Caz, and am so glad that you got to spend time with Belle.

I hope that you and DH are being well loved and looked after and that Belle's funeral is as special as it can be. Take care xx

Much love to you and your DH. The rest of the guys have put so well what I want to say but cannot find the words to do.

Oh Caz

I hope both you and your dh find the strength to continue supporting eachother through this very difficult (understatement) time.

Do take care.
R.I.P precious Belle - your parents are truly wonderful strong people who will always love you so much.

xxxxx

Caz firstly, I want to say thank you for being so generous as to share your story with us all. I think you and your DH sound like the most incredible parents Belle could have ever wished for. I'll be thinking of you both and hope you're getting all the love and support you deserve. X