Just wondered if I was on my own here but I'm due on 30th Dec and even though its my second, find myself having some real moments of panic every time I feel a slight twinge. Had a pain the other night and promptly burst into tears saying 'I'm not ready!!'. Am positive I'll be early this time. Am behind on my washing because of weather (crap heaters and no tumble dryer) and nursery filled with xmas pressies and decorations waiting to go up. I know it's not the end of the world but I had a very quick labour with my DS (1hr half) and tore badly and lost a lot of blood. Dad's been in hospital for 2 months but out now so trying to care for him as much as poss and also stressed making arrangements for shared xmas with my ex for my 3yr DS. Upsetting knowing I won't see him xmas day (for the 1st year) but I did have him last year. Sorry it's long winded, feel like such a moaner!!!