Hi,
I'm 7+6 and the last two/three weeks have been hell.
I have spoken to various people about how I am feeling and they have all assured me it's normal to have ups and downs and freak-out moments during pregnancy but how I'm feeling does not feel right..... I have lost sight of every reason why I wanted this, I have no maternal instincts whatsoever (I did before, strongly) and now I'm strongly considering pursuing other options.... Please don't judge me - I just feel so irresponsible for not considering all of the things I am now e.g. how my life will change, how financially we will struggle, how I will have to put another first when I struggle with MH issues (id previously been self medicating with weed and cigarettes so stopped them when I found out at 3 weeks). I don't think I can do this.
I wake up every morning freaking out, I don't have the happy moments (other than when I am distracted and forget I'm pregnant) and I don't want to bring a baby into this world that isn't 100% wanted. I really wish I had written a list of why I wanted this as I have lost the desire completely...
Hopefully someone will appreciate this isn't easy to talk about but I think it's ok to be selfish if actually you are thinking about someone else too...