I'm feeling like a bit of a cow, so posting to ask for reassurance.
I have a very very close friend who is currently dying of cancer.
We have a mutual friend who is also close to her but probably not as close as we are...we have all been friends for about 15 years, and for a long time I have not been in contact with the second friend as she and I seem to have a sort of glitch in the way we communicate...it just feels a bit awkward though I am very fond of her. We have different ways of thinking I suppose.
Anyway recently we got back in touch because of the situation with our friend. I've been in regular contact with the poorly friend and her family, while the second friend seems to have stopped.
She told me that she cannot deal with it and when things like this happens, she goes into denial and lives in a bubble. But she has been emailing me every so often to ask for updates.
I didn't mind and found it helpful at first but it is really starting to make me angry now. I have ignored several phone calls from her as I am so cross, and got an email the other day saying what's going on with our friend, to which I replied that I didn't know much about what's happening. I was fairly brief and dismissive.
Then an email came back saying she was sorry for bugging me for updates and it didn't sound like things were too good, but said in a flippant manner...followed by suggesting we have a 'catch up chat' about other stuff, 'hee hee'
I feel quite sick about it. But I am aware that some people cannot honestly deal with serious illness, terminal illness, that kind of issue - and do walk away.
I feel so resentful of having to filter info out for her while dealing with the hardcore news myself. And I am so not in the mood for being flippant and silly.
I think partly I am taking out my own emotions on her. But I can't handle her messages.
I'm being unreasonable aren';t I.