Miss him so so much

[CymbidiumHybrid]

I miss him so much, it is killin me, I nearly had a breakdown at work today (which I love and is very important to me).

120 days, 7 hours and 58 minutes since he was pronounced dead.

I've had councilling but not coping. I want to cry and never stop. I

It is such a difficult thing you are going through....I have watched my mum do it when my dad died.

Do you get much opportunity to talk about him to anyone?

I get alot of opportunity, but, not to family.

I see his face every day and want him back so so much.

Aw sweetheart. He was a huge part of your life for so long, you won't stop missing him in just 120 days, 7 hours and 58 minutes.

I am wishing you strength & and patience.

Is there anyone with you who knew him too, just for a chat?

He was the last of my blood relatives.

He wasn't that liked to be honest, i have posted about this under a different name, but, I loved him, even though he has hurt me greatly.

So many things don't add up.

I have a man in my life who hurt me and my sisters deeply and in a way I could never have thought possible.

I too have posted under a different name.

I don't 'like' him much & see him as little as possible. It won't stop me crying when he's gone though. Love is a funny old thing.

Ah, if someone's "not that liked", it can be even worse, as one feels guilty for being human...

So sorry.

How are you getting on, CymbidiumHybrid?

Not too good to be honest. Thank you for asking after me.

What's happening?

Hi, I think I know how u feel, I just lost my partner of 6 years on the 14th of this month, and he leaves behind an 11 week old baby.

I dont know if im coming or going as I'm so so sad.. he was only 38.

January is hard even for people who are not bereaved, so maybe your friends and family will be more receptive to your loneliness at this time. It could be a good time to see people you haven't seen in ages.

Sorry I can't be of any more help right now, but do post again.