Can't stop crying...... I miss my dad so much.

[spookycharlotte121]

Stupid really..... he died 13 years ago so its not even like the wound is fresh but another thread about someone friend with terminal cancer has bought all the memories flooding back.... i was only 8 and i cant really remeber him and i feel so guilty for it.

He never got to see my kids.... and he wont give me away at my wedding.... most of all i just want a hug from him.

sometimes i fall asleep and see him and I always try and almost control the dream just to get a hug.

god im such a loon.

It will always hurt, some days more than others. Just remember that he is always with you in spirit.

I am crying reading your post as I don't ever want to face the day I lose my parents but it is inevitable. I wish I could say something comforting but I lost my own child in April and just had a MC. The only thing that has got me through is my parents. The memories of your dad will never leave you. He is a lucky father for having a daughter who loves him so very much. xxxx

Oh you are not a loon

Don't feel guilty for not remembering him. The fact that you miss him and still love him is enough.

My dad is the most wonderful man I know and he is 78 and about to have a heart bypass. I am paralysed by terror of losing him. But even if he gets through this I will have to face it sometime.

just wanted to say thanks for your posts.... they have made me feel quite teary.
I am a bit all over the place at the moment.

Ds looks quite a lot like him too which sometimes catches me off guard and its nice but also sad.... having had 3 daughters he would have loved ds... his grandson. Im pretty sure though thaat he is watching over us all with our lovely border collie dog by his side.
They were inseperable and when my dad died my mum used to come home from work and find the dog under the duvet on my dads side of the bed. was very cute but also heart breakingly sad.

You're very welcome.

FIL died 13yrs ago too. DH was 35 but the effect on him was intense. He still misses and grieves for his father. I don't think it ever leaves you.