Losing a very good friend

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I'm sorry to offload but am feeling really cut up.
My best friend is ill, since this summer it has been very fast and it is starting to sink in that she isn't necessarily going to make it.

I'm very frightened as I haven't many friends and have known her for many many years, and she has always stood by me through everything. It hasn't always been a smooth ride between us but she has always been there.

I love her so much and am so scared that she might not be here in a year or so. What am I going to do without her?

I want to help her but I can't and every time we speak, I try and be cheerful and we discuss everything quite realistically but then afterwards I just fall to pieces, it hurts so much. It almost makes me not want to talk with her because if I don't, it just seems like a bad story that isn't going to happen, isn't real, but when I hear her voice and she is her lovely, cheerful, strong self like she has always been, it tears me to bits because surely that person can't die, she can't, she's alive and I love her.

She is so beautiful and I need her, I can't let go. Sorry to go on.

I don't mind about replies just had to write it down. Please pray for her if you can,
thankyou

So sorry to hear that, really hope she pulls through.

A very close friend of mine died 3 weeks ago, over the years she had always been "there for me". The last four weeks of her life gave me the opportunity to really be there for her, I told her much she meant to me. We laughed together & cried together and we planned her funeral together. I think you have to expect the worse but hope for the best. Be open, honest & "there" for your friend. I know it's not easy.

Thankyou both,

Brightwell, I am so sorry you lost your friend.

I have found the last few months that we have become closer and closer and I have loved being with her and sharing these conversations, it has brought us more together and I can't be anything but grateful for that.

It's been such a gift to know her during this, sounds odd, but there you go...I have felt useful to her for the first time, and hope I have been.

I can't accept that she might die, not yet.

Stay with her through this. It doesn't matter if you make her cry, because crying is a release. Even though it probably feels good and necessary to make her smile and keep her cheerful, she will take pleasure from the tears, too, as brightwell indicated.

Hey, I am hoping for the very best outcome for this, but also sending you a hug. I had some crushing news today about a very dear friend of mine (who's more like family) so can relate to what you're saying. Try and be strong and also be there for your lovely friend. If you need to vent - you know where we are! xxxx