Hi,
My friend passed away very suddenly in March and I am finding it very hard to deal with. We were friends through circumstance, so we didn't share the same groups of friends, but yet had remained friends for 16 years. I miss him terribly.
He moved abroad quite some time ago, but we would have phone conversations and regular emails. As none of my friends knew him I feel I have no-one to talk about him with. My DH has never lost anyone close to him before, and thinks I should be over it now, so I hide my feelings about how upset I still am. My sister knew him too, but as she is also still grieving, and I don't want to upset her by talking about him.
I have so many unanswered questions for him, and can't believe I will never have answers. There were things surrounding his death which I want to know but have no-one to ask. I think as I wouldn't see him every day I am finding it hard to believe he's even gone.
Sorry to rant, but this is the first time I've managed to say all these things!
Thanks for the outlet.
Lx