I had a very dear friend. She was a little bit bonkers and was sometimes hard to love. She died 18 months ago after a horrendous 3 year battle with cancer. Her husband is DHs best friend.
Soon after she was diagnosed, things became strained between us and, I am ashamed to say I wasn't really there for her. The last time we spoke, we were on friendly terms but I can never really forgive myself.
Fast forward to now, her DH has remarried (9 months after she died) he and their 2 boys are very happy and I am glad they have found someone who loves them as much as my friend did.
DH has just told me they are moving and the house has been sold. I feel devastated and I'm not sure why? It feels like I am losing the last little piece of her. We live just accross the road and we bought our houses arround the same time. I have found it comforting to look out of the window and imagine her coming out of the front door, late as always!
I know there is nothing anyone can say, I know they have to move on and I know it will be good for all of them. Just needed to write it down.