Sorry, I lost my Mother around 18months-2 years ago. She had quite a traumatic death, She found out she had terminal cancer and died all within 3 weeks. I held her in my arms as she died, but even now 2 years on I cannot get over the shock, I can't get over seeing her dying. I don't remember her as the person she was, I just think about those last days endlessly, and how I and others reacted. Its all just such a nightmare, my partner isn't much of a support.