Still hurts 3 years on

[BibiThree]

Just getting it all out and here is ime an excellent place to do so...

It's 3 years today since I lost my baby boy, it was a missed m/c at 16 weeks and I still miss him so much.

Most people I know who have had mcs seem to get over them well and quickly, but I can't seem to shake the loss and the thoughts of who my baby boy could have been.

Dh and I will be releasing a balloon into the stars/night sky later on, which we've done every year, and makes me feel a little better about things, like we're telling him we've not forgotten him and we love him.

Why is this so hard? I am crying just typing this. I wish I wasn't such a wuss. That's it really, just needed it write it down. Thanks for reading if you got this far.

Don't know what to say but just read your post and feel so sad for you. You are not a wuss, you have been through a terrible loss and it is completly normal to feel the way you do. Have a good cry on your DH's shoulder. What a lovely idea to release a balloon for your boy by the way.

BibiThree Don't beat yourself up for feeling like this, everyone grieves differently, you might think other people have got over their m/c's but deep down I'm sure they are still hurting. I've had 2 mm/c's this year and couldn't believe how affected I was and still am, the feelings of loss and devastation completely overwhelmed me. I never really thought much about it before it happened to me, I love the idea of the balloon by the way, it's a really thoughtful idea and I'm sure your little boy appreciates it.
Take care of yourself, you are not a wuss, you are a grieving and loving mother x

Not a wuss. My friend had a m/c years ago in her early 20's and still marks the due date and thinks of it as the birthday of her first child. She now has two children and a new baby but doesn't forget that first pregnancy and what her child might have been.

My thoughts go with you and that loving balloon to the stars.

x

Thank you all, and I'm sorry to hear about your losses too. Still crying, but feeling less alone with these feelings iykwim.