Waking up crying from loss.

[Tcateh]

I know I had one of those nights of feeling inadequate, feeling misunderstood and lost.
On waking a was crying which turned into big blobby uncontrollable tears.
Really wracked with grief, crying loudly and my god the sadness.
I know it's all part of it but just need to be affirmed by stranhe8on the internet.
It's nearly 3 yrs since my mum died.
She was distraught at leaving us.

Does anyone else hate this massive surge coming back any taking over. It's overwhelming isn't it.
Where do those big blobby tears hide.
I'm exhausted. ( Also have fibromyalgia and other stuff going on)
It's scary because I feel like oh no I've nothing left.
Drained and angry.
Xxx

'strangers in the internet '

But actually other normal lovely people xxx

I think this is perfectly normal OP. Grief is the most awful thing, never really leaving and sneaking up on you when you expect it least. I’m so sorry about your mum x

Normal in my case, it’s 20 years since I lost my Mum and even now I cry uncontrollable sobs, same with my Dad and brother who I lost 13 years ago. When I speak to family, it’s about good times, but alone it still hurts.

I still cry 17 years later. And when I'm going through a rough time (which I am currently) I think of him more and cry even more. It's so hard and until you go through it, people don't understand. I don't talk about it to anyone because everyone I know still has both parents.
Be kind to yourself as 3 years is absolutely no time at all.

I'm sorry 😔 for all your losses.
This surge I guess needed to come out.
Don't want it to, dont need to be reminded do you.
Like I bloody well know she's gone.
I dunno.
Xx

I know the feeling. I lost my Dad 20 months ago, think about him all the time and really random things make me cry. Like hanging washing on the washing line he put up. Or his lovely roses flowering in the garden. It’s really hard.

And I'm fat, like some stone of weight has appeared over the last year and I would prefer the fat I was before thankyou.
Sorry just my sense of humour and mum's too.
X!

Yes the random things of life. I understand.
Waking up this morning sobbing was a bit of a shock. X

Were you dreaming OP? I sometimes wake up crying because my lovely brother was in my dreams. I think it’s the crying that wakes me.

It was an unsettled night of dreams but I can't pinpoint mum being in them.
More feeling misunderstood by people. I think the subconscious feeling I've had alot for yrs.

I'm sorry you lost your brother xxx