First Fathers Day without my Dad

[Everglow]

Hi
My lovely Dad suddenly passed away 11 weeks ago, far too young and far too soon.
I can't see him today, so I wanted to write some words that don't get shut away in my notebook like the others.
I would want my Dad to know how much I love him, how I'm struggling without having the one person who loved me unconditonally, even though he wasn't the best at outwardly showing it.
I'd want him to know that my heart is broken for the things he will miss that he should have been here for. How I'll desperately try to keep his memory alive for my children who he loved so much, but will likely not remember much of him.
I'd like to thank him for everything he did for me growing up, he made me the person I am today and I hope I can make him proud.
I'd want him to know that I miss him every day and I'm terrified of forgetting him; his quirks, his voice, his mannerisms. If I'd have known he'd be taken so soon and so young, I would have taken more videos and pictures, but he would have hated that and then he wouldn't have been the person he was - my Dad.
I hope anyone else struggling to get through today is able to manage as best they can ❤

So sorry for your loss.

Your post clearly shows how much you loved your dad and he was lucky to have a daughter like you.

Your dad’s memory will be kept alive by you for years to come and you can share little stories with your children as they get older.
It’s natural that Fathers Day (especially the first one and so soon after he passed sway) is particularly difficult.

But trust me when I say, you won’t forget anything about him. I lost my dad over 25 years ago and I remember him every day. I hardly have any photos of him, but I still remember his kindness, his energy and how much he was loved by everyone. He didn’t see me get married, have children, build my life, my sister become an adult. He missed so many milestones. But we remember him for all of these.

Do you have any siblings or family that you can share your thoughts with? Have you considered getting counselling to help you deal with your loss?

I hope you get through today and every day and remember there is no timeline for grief.