Feeling so very sad tonight :(

[Teaandjaffa]

My beautiful DM died 9 months ago, my world fell apart but I had no choice to carry on. Young DCs, Job, DH that works away from home, Mortgage to pay etc.. Life had to carry on. I buried the grief, put on a brave face and continued to show up for everyone, everything.
It sounds so silly but I’ve come down with my first illness since DM passed, nothing particularly serious but feeling so sad and low.. it’s hit me like a ton of bricks, there is literally no-one who cares and loves you as much as a Parent. She would know exactly what to say, would tell me what to do and was the most comforting person ever.
I feel fragile, shaky, and so alone. I can’t even cry because the tears just won’t come 💔
Not sure where I’m going with this post but just needed to put it all down.

Hi,

I couldn't read this and not respond.
I feel this. I also lost my beautiful Mum 9 months ago and it sounds like they were similar. My Mum knew everything- she was a nurse and had an answer for everything. Last week I got admitted to hospital and the whole way there all I could think was I want my Mum. Thankfully it was easily treated and I'm ok now but that first time where you feel so vulnerable is incredibly hard. Do you have anyone else around you? I have two beautiful sister in laws and my hubby is wonderful. It's not the same of course. Not even close but stay close to the people you love and let them love you. I hope you feel better soon!

I’m so sorry. It’s so incredibly hard. I lost my wonderful dad 5 months ago. Like both of you have said about your mums, he was the best and a huge source of comfort always. I had to be in hospital today and wished I could have had one of his hugs so badly. As I was being put to sleep I felt very emotional and then woke up crying too. I just needed my dad.
I hope you feel much better soon. I think (hope) that they’re with us. Looking in and keeping watch x

I know how you're feeling - my mum died over 33 years ago and i still miss her dreadfully. Be kind to yourself and cry when you need to.

I did end up on anti-depressants which helped hugely so do ask for help if you need to.

wishing you all the best.

25 years last Friday since I lost my mum. There is so much I want to tell her x

I hear you OP. 🌹

There is no love, like a Mother's love (if you are lucky enough to have an amazing one as I was)

I lost my Mum suddenly 5 years ago and I miss her everyday.

In those times when I feel low, lost, vulnerable, worried, ill, and even excited and happy. I don't have her to share all that with and I don't have her to talk to.

There have been so many times I have needed her love and her words of wisdom and she has not been there.

There have been so many times I have wanted to tell her about the good things happening in my life, and she has not been there.

It is SO hard. So unbelievably tough sometimes to live in this world without her in it.

I am lucky that I have an amazing DH and amazing DC's but my Mum's death has left a massive gaping hole in my life that no other person can fill.

I have no words of advice, all I can say is that you are not alone in how you feel.

I often wonder if it will get better. 5, 10, 15 years from now but honestly, I don't think I will ever stop missing her or wishing she was still here.

Much love x