Grief

[lisaM76X]

I am really struggling with the loss of my sister, she died suddenly through alcoholism 18 months ago after being in recovery and I miss her so much.

I feel guilty I couldn’t save her, that she didn’t have the life she deserved after working so hard to get better.

When I close my eyes at night I see her, when I wake up I think of her. I just want my sister back which I know sounds stupid but the ache to see / hug her again is unbearable.

So sorry for your loss. 18 months is still early days really.
Please don’t feel guilty. This was a battle that she had to face alone and I’m sure you were supportive.
Have you had any support from professionals or is there anyone you speak to IRL? People just expect you to move on but it’s not that simple.
You might find this site helpful. Be kind to yourself.

https://siblinggriefclub.com/about/