A year on Sunday

[Stressedoutmummyof3]

First anniversary of my mum's death on Sunday. For some reason this is hitting me even harder than the other milestones. She had a fall and ended up in hospital and just went downhill so fast Two weeks after going to hospital she died. The nurses told us on Friday she would probably die over the weekend and she died late Saturday night.
My heart hurts so much, I keep crying. I miss her so much and nothing is the same but the world keeps going.
I just don't want to cope with it. The thought of never seeing her, never having a hug, never seeing her smile and never talking to her again is killing me.
I feel like I'm loosing my mind. Does it ever get easier?

It does get easier, the first ones are really hard but it's our fourth anniversary later this month and it is feeling easier than years one, two and three. I can remember finding the lead up to the day harder than the actual anniversary itself. Sending you peace, it is so, so hard.

I feel your pain.