I lost my Nan New Years Eve. She was basically a Mum to me - raising me throughout my childhood as my mum was in the army and often away.
I’m 34 weeks pregnant today and I’m just so scared about the impact this has had on baby. I had to put my dog to sleep only a few months ago which left me crying in bed for several days. But this time, I’m completely lost.
She was with me several years ago when I received the news that I wasn’t ever likely to have children. And she was the first person to know when I did get pregnant, by some miracle. Her last words before she was taken into hospital was ‘I’ve got to fight this, I’ve got a great grandson due in February’ and she was so excited about him - perhaps more than me. And now she’ll never get to meet him.
There’s so much to do over the next few weeks in terms of funeral arrangements, sorting the house, etc, and I haven’t even had a chance to think about everything baby related. Any support, advice, or words of wisdom from anyone who’s been through anything similar would be greatly appreciated.