A thread for anyone who is struggling or grieving right now.
This year was the fourth Christmas without my DP; we're now three years onto this journey without him.
I have a lovely life and lots to be postive about, Christmas was lovely and spent with our DC and my family and I got through unscathed and good in good spirits, but as usual once Boxing day is done and we begin to head into a new year, the grief and sadness makes a reappearance.
It seems to have followed the same pattern for the last two years so at least I know what to expect (hopefully) and that by mid-Jan it'll have subsided again, but bloody hell it's brutal isn't it? I just feel so sad - sadder then I've felt any other time during the year and more prolonged. It underpins everything and with it is a sense that everything is so fleeting. I think about the effects of time, about how next year we'll all be a year older - really depressive stuff. It generally takes two or three weeks for me to come out of it again and get back to normal, but it's just horrible, isn't?
Hugs for everyone who is in this position x