To feel like a burden to everyone

[Elvisbaby321]

So this year I have had a LOT of sick leave like ridiculous amounts at least a week every month this is due to a ongoing illness unexplained sickness and diarrhoea which I’m under a consultant for and had multiple tests they still can’t figure out what’s going on I’ve given my hospital letters into work.

I then last month suffered a nervous breakdown to the point of having panic attacks multiple times a day my doctor believes I have been suffering from delayed grief from when my mom died I took care of her for 5 years and worked 50 hours a week in a care home to say it wasn’t easy would be a understatement I was signed off for 5 weeks and put on new medication and went back two weeks ago.

my uncle died suddenly on Saturday night a massive heart attack which was a complete shock my uncle has never been unwell and has always been healthy. I have taken today and tommrow off as I honestly haven’t been able to sleep I feel like I’m in a state of shock not really knowing what to do my aunt is unwell herself I live next door she suffers from copd and her breathing is not good so does need help however I honestly don’t feel I can give it so I’m trying to sort something for her and I am getting in touch with adult social services.

i just feel like a burden to everyone at work they’ve been great and sympathetic but to have to text my manager again today and say I can’t come in as someone has died after only being back for two weeks I feel deflated I’m constantly worrying I’m gonna get the sack my Bradford score is 2400 which is just ridiculous I’ve worked at my place for 6 years and I’ve never been like this but it constantly feels like I’m just not coping or something else happens and I need time off.

has anyone else experienced this or have any advice?

Are you being paid?

I don’t get any sick pay it would be ssp

as for the bereavement I honestly don’t know I doubt it

Are you being paid for it?

Do you have any dependents? A partner?

No it’s literally just me

I think you need to make the effort
to to go in unless your uncle was on parr with your father

Its not your fault, it is what it is so you're definitely not a burden. You didn't ask for it cause any of this. I would consider Crohn's disease, especially if you are losing weight

He was like a father to me my aunt and uncle could never have children so they ways treated us like there’s

I’ve lost a lot of weight this year and crohns has been mentioned more then once I’ve got another test to attend in December so hopefully they narrow it down more however it’s took a long time waiting for appointments

If you are worried about losing your job then go into work. Being unemployed , or under threat of losing your job will surely make you more anxious, not less.
If you hadn't already had so much time off, a day for a very close relative would be OK, but it is going to look bad to take time off now, especially as you will no doubt need a day off for the funeral as well.
If you can make it into work, do.

Ok. With weight loss it could very well be Crohn's disease. With Crohn's disease, just so you know, it's better to get seen sooner rather than later because it's the flares that cause the damage and the first flare is usually the worst. You would need a colonoscopy to diagnose it really because bloods don't always show it up until it gets worse. If you haven't had a colonoscopy already I would push for one. You could go into A&e more than once if they send you home. They won't send you home a second time without investigating. I regret not acting sooner on my first flare because my quality of life would be better now. The doctors kept brushing me off and I went along with it. I hope you get sorted soon