18 months on

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Grief is a funny thing. My dad died about 18 months ago. We actually had quite a distant relationship. But I still am affected by it. Most days I'm fine but sometimes it will knock me for six. The fact he is not there and never ever will be again. It can take my breath away. Today is one of those days and I'm close to tears all the time. Grief also makes me very very nostalgic for the past. Like a terrible longing for something I can never have again. It makes me feel very lost and unsafe and abandoned. I am dreading losing my mum as we are very close. The funny thing is I can't tell her any of this as she too is obviously affected. But in a different way. Just feeling very strange today. I wish I could turn back time. One positive I guess is that it makes me reflective of my life so far, the good and the bad and what I want to do now -'d what's important and to make time for.

I'm so sorry, and I understand.
Grief can definitely take you by surprise.

I still miss my dad, and he died 52 years ago, long before I had my children.

I really relate to the homesick feeling, thats such a good way to describe it. I find myself thinking of the 1970s alot when I was a child and the security I felt. My dad has been gone nearly 5 years and my partner 22 years, you never stop missing them.

I'm 8 months on from my ds's suicide and coping well...but this morning I heard a song and thought " oh he'd like this"...but of course he's not here.

It is so difficult, so sorry for everyone also struggling. These words sum up how it all feels when I’m feeling their loss a little bit more than usual.

That's a beautiful poem, thanks for posting that.

Lovely poem

Sorry to all of you too. It's a terrible thing.