Sorry i havent posted to let you all know how im doing. Harrys funeral was nearly two weeks from when we lost him (two weeks tomorrow), it was last friday. There were over 250 people there and we had requested that no one wore black and just wore what they were comfortable in.
As the cars brought him up our road i just crumpled, his little white casket with bears on was so sad. we walked behind him to the church just around the corner. He entered the church to beautiful boy by john lennon. We had a poem 'when tomorrow starts without me' read by my friend. My mum and sister both wrote letters to harry to be read out, and my daughter wrote a poem. We sang 'the lord of the dance' and 'give me joy' and everyone joined in. We had two songs played 'what colour is the wind, daddy' and 'Harry' by catherine Howe, and he left the church to 'the promise' by tracy chapman. I had made the order of service myself and everyone said i did him proud, it took me ages and i had to print 200 copies.
The crematorium was so hard for us. He entered to 'you are my sunshine', and the final song was 'fly' by celine deon. It was so hard to walk outside and leave him there. I kissed his casket, told him i loved him and broke down again.
outside we had arranged to let 150 red and blue balloons go. we had made labels with ' In memory of Harry Bear, died 29/04/08 aged 5yrs'. we also included email address for people to contact us if they found one. We gave the balloons out, people wrote their own message to harry on them and after three cheers for him, we let them go, and wathced them soar so high.
We had arranged for people to go back to my parents social club, and i couldnt believe how packed the place was and how many people said he had touched their lives or changed them in some way.
It is still so hard, i keep forgetting then remembering that hes not here. we picked his ashes up today and he is now at home with us again.
Love Denise