My baby brother comitted suicide after four long years of struggling with his mental health. How do I go on? How do I accept his decision that it was too painful for him to carry on and he would be better off ending his life? He has left his parents, sibling, nieces and cousins bereft. He was so loved. His passing has ended family feuds and reunited cousins.
We just couldn’t make him see it was worth it to keep fighting. He made two other attempts before this. We got him the help he needed for medication and therapy. He was retested for autism and met the criteria as an adult. He felt his school friends had moved on without him and he struggled to make new friends. Covid made everything worse. He has just started college again and actually attending but he told mum he had no friends and made people uncomfortable with his awkwardness. Yet he told me that he had made a new circle of friends. Was it his paranoia? I know there was nothing more we could do for him but it still feels like it wasn’t enough.
How do I carry on with life without him in it? My youngest child won’t remember him.