Feel like I'm lost at sea

[MeandBobbyMcGoo]

My mum died just over a year ago. I'm in my 40s but feel like I've lost my anchor to life. My aunt, my mum's sister died 6 months after my mum, and my cousin late last year. It feels like everyone is just dying. I struggle to see the joy and purpose in life if everyone just dies and life is so temporary. I don't know what I'm saying or want from this thread. Perhaps just to hear, while hoping and praying that it is normal?

I think it’s normal to feel like that after everything you’ve been through/lost. I feel a bit like it myself. I’ve lost my dad and my best friend in the last few years, and my mum is so poorly she needs a lot of care. Added to that I lost a long term job in covid, and my beloved horse and two dogs. I feel like I’m swimming hard at the top of a whirlpool while everything I care about is getting sucked under. Life does feel hard work and joyless at the moment. But I hope it’s just a stage we have to go through and that time will heal things a bit.

I hope I’ve not depressed you with my reply. I mainly wanted to say I understand. I think it’s normal to feel as you do, especially as it’s quite recent for you. Keep plodding on. Try to focus on the positive things in your life. I really hope you feel better soon.

It’s rough and so hard. Have you got much support?

Bring yourself. Back.

This is so so normal OP. It’s been a year and 9 months for me (my beloved gran) and I totally relate to your feeling of being at sea and disoriented.

I recently went on a course called The Bereavement Journey which I believe is worldwide. It’s run by charity AtaLoss. It was so useful and I have even made friends. Do look it up and see if one is running near you.

100% normal ♡
I am so sorry for you lost. I lost a friend Friday. We knew each other 50 years. It's touch.

It'll get better in time. Do you have support?