Tmfr support

[Pippin87]

We recently lost our darling baby girl Sienna Hope at 21 weeks and 2 days. She had severe heart defects that wasn’t viable with life. It’s been the worst 3 weeks of our life since finding out at the 20 week scan, she is now home where she belongs and will live safely in my heart forever as my first beautiful baby. I have never felt a love so strong.
im not sure what im asking for here but maybe to feel like im not alone?
her delivery was the saddest most beautiful day of my life.

I’ve not been through the same thing but I am so so sorry. Live a life where you can tell her what you achieved when you get to see her and hold her again. She’s waiting for you when you’re done here and you can tell her everything ❤️

I am sorry for your loss, @Pippin87 . 💐

I’m so sorry that you are having to endure this terrible loss. Sienna Hope, what a beautiful name you gave her. I haven’t been through this, but 11 years ago my daughter lost a baby girl in early pregnancy. She also had a condition that was incompatible with life. Our grief is less raw, but the memories of that time never go away and we do things all the time to remember her. We talk about her, I recently sponsored a tree in her name through the National Trust. My daughter gave me a sea glass mobile to hang in my garden, and I have a Christmas tree decoration in her memory. My daughter has a part of the garden that’s Maple’s garden with a beautiful Acer planted in it. I hope you will find things to do to honour your beautiful baby and celebrate the fact that Sienna was there, you carried her and nurtured her and loved and adored her. And I hope you get comfort from whatever you do.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your darling girl Sienna, @Pippin87.
I had a TFMR at almost 24 weeks a few years ago as our first baby DS had severe disabilities.
TFMR is so very hard as you have the agony and shock of scans, the horrendous pain of decision making (which I felt I was unable to share with a lot of people, to avoid being judged) and at your stage having to birth your baby too - I really feel for you.

Please take care of yourself and know you are not alone.

ARC's helpline is staffed by wonderful people - please give them a call if you need a handhold IRL xx

I've sent you a pm. I'm sorry for your loss.

Thank you you all for your kind words, it will be 5 weeks on Thursday since i delivered my baby girl, im stil so incredibly sad but some days are easier, ive started therapy which is helping a lot, i havent really been out in public yet ‘the real world’ apart from dog walks, i am so scared of seeing a pregnant woman and that sending me back a few steps. I’m 37 and Sienna is our first, i struggle to with the guilt i feel whenever i start to think about ttc again, im just cautious of my age and the love i have for Sienna is so unbelievably strong i just know i have enough to share with hopefully her sibling. She will always be my first born and is so precious to me.