My Birth mother passed away today

[Springminded]

I don't know how to feel. I never met her but have spoke to her a few years ago and written letters. I have no resentment to her but I feel sad but haven't cried and I feel normal. She died of a stroke and lived in another country. She upset so many people and she wasn't very much liked as what she has done through the years.. But I'm not angry and when I spoke to the hospital I said to the nurse send her my love. I'm glad I did that now but I don't love someone I don't know.

I have lived a similar (but not the same) experience and all I can say is it's fine to feel nothing or everything. It's a significant loss, even if it isn't the loss of a loving parent.

I never met my biological mother, similarly to yours mine wasn't a very popular person, in fact I imagine some would have celebrated when she died.

When I first found out I felt nothing, I didn't cry, I wasn't sad, it wasn't until about 2 days later that I went through every emotion possible, happiness because I hated her for many years and in fact wished her dead on a number of occasions, sadness because of the what ifs, anger because of how she died (suicide), affection because she technically was my biological mother even if I never knew her, hatred, regret... ect.

8/9 years later I feel nothing again.
You may have a similar experience, you may not feel anything ever, but that's absolutely fine.

My birth mother walked away when I was 6 leaving me with my father. Never heard from her until I was 50. I wrote to her telling her what I had done with my life, she wrote back telling me not to write to her again as I reminded her of the worst time in her life. When I heard via cousin in Australia she had died I felt nothing and I do not feel guilty. BTW I am not usually this horrid.

Thankyou for your replys. Glad to see I'm not alone in having no feelings at all. I actually feel good and she'd no tears. I don't feel sad at all. My half brothers and myself have spoke alot more and it's nice. Seems she was ablack cloud and now everyone healing as she was awful to the half brothers to. She's not having a attended funeral. She's having a direct cremation